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My priority is staying safe. The idea that direct action of any kind is legitimate in certain circumstances opens the door for any group with any agenda to feel OK to go ahead and break this or burn that or some other such wheeze and that leads us to a world in which I feel even less safe in as a person with one or more characteristic that is going to put me in some group or other's firing line: white, middle class, fairly affluent, middle-aged, wishy-washy liberal centrist (and not a fan of Naim
) just wanting to get to the end of his life as well as he can and to keep his partner safe.
So for those of you who are comfortable with direct action because you're on 'their' side, good for you. But, be under no illusion, one day, you won't be on the side of the majority and then you'll perhaps see why the events over the weekend trouble us / me.
Good evening all!
This is my "Stream of consciousness"; a response to the above. Please bear with me; I'm on day six of a seven day run driving buses in Greater London.
Excuses done; right! Riots were mentioned above. Has anyone been anywhere near a riot taking place; or one about to take place?
I'm not going to mince my words. I have. It is ****ing scary. Croydon; 2011. I was working a late shift driving a Route 64 bus. I got to West Croydon Station (heading towards New Addington) and noticed a Police Van with a very tense looking crew down a side road opposite.
I had a strange feeling. I looked ahead of me and saw a MASSIVE crowd of people moving very slowly towards where I was.
What does one do when in charge of lives and 11,880Kg of Scania/East Lanc's finest? Sit there like a "Rabbit in the Headlights" and allow passengers too scared to touch in to board.
A Radio Call came from a normally unflappable Route Controller:
"All Croydon Mobiles in the Croydon area get. Out. Of. Central. Croydon. Now. You pick up any remaining passengers and you get out now!"
Now, that Scania DSC9 Engine can propel said 'Omnidekka at quite a pace when required. I did precisely that with the cab window open; the unmistakable acrid smell of burning buildings flowed in as I drove away. East Croydon Station was as close as buses could get as New Addington and Central Croydon was closed off.
When I'd completed my duty, I was on the way back to the Depot, I'd changed buses; Duty split between 64 and 130. I had one of Guildford's finest. A Transbus Pointer Dart. I was keen to maintain a low profile; having heard Radio Calls referring to a bus being set alight...
I was almost back at Croydon Depot when I turned around to see a couple of lads in a Peugeot 206. The big boxes with Samsung writ large started to twitch. There were in fact five people in that car. And they'd looted some shops at a nearby Retail Park.
I smiled and drove away as fast as Darlington's finest Cummins ISBe would allow me; the distinctive throaty growl competing with the ever closer police sirens and shop alarms for attention.
Now, I have experienced racism. It is mentioned elsewhere on this forum. A piece of paper depicting two Stick Figures; one of which was 'Necklaced' was placed on my then Workplace Locker.
Two weeks later, I spent several weeks in East Grinstead with 7% burns. I was 16 at the time.
That experience ****ed things up for many years. I hated people, had now self confidence and experienced anxiety and depression for some years afterwards.
I've been incredibly fortunate to have met some people who helped me through all of that; they listened and did not judge. It was a long road. But I made it, much like a Leyland Worldmaster; O.680 Engine pulling from tickover up a steep and rough road...
An interesting journey. Now, racism and racist behaviour hasn't gone away. It is an incidious undercurrent; it manifests itself in an a variety of ways.
People become experts in Geography:
"Why don't you go back home where you belong?"
My response usually catches these people out. As soon as I open my mouth. Could this be because to these people, I don't sound like I "Should"?
So, a group of people who campaigned for the removal of a Statue depicting a known Slave Trader for years took matters into their own hands. Good. May many more follow. This is what happens when people feel like they do not have a voice.
Let's not forget we have a PM who has used racist language to describe BAME people; who appears to deny that racism is a problem in the UK promise that justice will be done.
If it wasn't so ****ing sad, it would be funny.